of being human...

i have always considered myself a strong person. when i want something, i know i will do everything to get it. when i have a goal, i know i will do everything to achieve it. when there is an obstacle ahead of me, i know i am always capable of overcoming it. when i set my mind on something, i know anything is possible. but then again, i am just human. i am no superhero. nor am i immortal. and as a human being i am aware that possibilities can only go as far as my mind can rationalize. i love to think and i certainly am a feeling person too. as what i always say, "i speak with my mind and feel with my heart." there may be a few times in my life when i made wrong decisions, but i am a person of character and because of this i have kept my head up high. i have learned to embrace the consequencs of my actions. each time i fell, i always stood up. and in all the times that i stood up i never looked down. yes life is but a wheel of fortune, sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down. and i guess this is what keeps me grounded.....this is what makes me human.

counting the days....

for most people the christmas countdown starts on the first day of september....for me it started way earlier! there is no christmas better than the one celebrated in manila...the festivities, the food, the atmosphere...these things are always worth coming back to. and so the song goes..."hinahanap-hanap kita manila..." i guess some people are right in saying that for me to move on with my new life here, i should start letting go of the life i left in manila. perhaps for someone my age, who has had a (quite) full (and happy) life in manila, moving on will never be easy. my children have adjusted quite well to a north american way of life, i am the one who is having a hard time. and so after almost a year, there are still days when i wish i'm back home in manila. but then again, times are always changing, nothing is pemanent in this world they say, so maybe in time i will learn to live and love the life here...but for now, i am counting the days...until i'm home again.