my thoughts at 30... (taken from my friendster blog)

a day after my birthday, here's what's on my mind.....
on my boys.... tristan, jason and jim are the best reasons why life is as good as it is now. they're my inspiration, my fulfillment, my life.
on motherhood.... no one in this world can ever criticize me on how i raise my children, because i know i raise them the best way i know how. i have been through a lot, i have weathered so many storms in my life, and i know that when my children grow up they will not be like me, they will be better than me because that's how i raise them to be.
on jim... i could never be happier with anyone else than i am now with jim. he has taught me so many things that i would have never learned alone. he made me feel so loved that i can no longer imagine living my life without him.
on career.... it is always difficult to establish a career, but once you've worked hard for it, it will pay off, twice as much as the effort you've exerted.
on money... if it weren't for my struggles in life, i would have never known the value of money. it is always best when it is money earned from hard work.
on friends... there is a thin line that separates true friends from real friends, yet more often than not, we seem to regret this thinking that our real friends are always true. i have lots of real friends..... lots of them, but true friends... perhaps just a handful.
on life.... i don't seek to have a pat on the back for the life that i have lived so far, just the blessings that God has bestowed upon me for the past years are enough for me to realize that i have been doing a good job. i have nothing much to brag about the 30 years of my life, just the happiness and fulfillment that i have now.

choices and the life we make... (taken from my friendster blog)

would you rather be rich but ugly, or poor but beautiful? would you rather be ugly but intelligent, or beautiful but stupid? would you rather be intelligent but hated, or stupid but loved? would you rather be hated but successful, or loved but a failure? would you rather be successful but not respected, or a failure but respected? there are endless options that we have in this journey called life... so many things to choose from... so many reasons to justify our choices... this is why we are called humans... because we have the power to rationalize... we have the power to think and justify... but do we always make the right choice? of course not... i myself have had so many wrong choices in life... but i was never ashamed of these choices, it may not be the right one in the eyes of other people, it may not be proper, it may not be the best, but since i've committed those choices already, there's no turning back, i have to live with it now... i have to accept the fact that these choices, be it good or bad, are all mine, and so no one is to be blamed for it but me, and i admit i have suffered from my bad choices, so much... but life moves on... it is not a question of the past, because it's all done... nor the future, because no one can tell what it has at stake... what matters is the present, because this is what we live by... and yes, life is what we make it...

what is your greatest fear in life? (taken from my friendster blog)

my greatest fear in life is to wake up 1 day and not fear anything or anyone at all...i don't think life would be as meaningful as it is to me now had i not faced my fears...i don't think i would ever become the better person that i am now had i not learned to conquer my fears...i believe that life is an endless journey, and on this journey, fear is always a necessity...why do i believe so? perhaps it is because after all the fears that i have conquered in my journey called life, i have become i stronger person, ready to face any battle, ready to overcome any obstacle...i could not imagine life without nothing to fear...i think somehow, my fears have given my life direction...i would want to think that there are so many things that i fear, and as i conquer every single one of it, i feel victorious, and so i would never want to live a life without fearing anything or anyone, as it will only mean a life of failure...

givin' it a try....

just like some people, i too keep a friendster blog, i've made a few posts, the last one i think was almost a year ago.....i was never a good writer, nor did i ever had a passion for writing, and so my friendster blog was just to keep up with the latest at that time, although i made some attempts to keep it active, but then i guess i wasn't too successful......but hey, being the risk-taker that i am, here i am again attempting to create another blog (i deleted my friendster blog), and hoping to be able to keep it active with worth-reading posts....so, after visiting a friend's blogsite (baconbitsandcheese.blogspot.com), here i am now thinking......maybe it's worth givin' it a try...